ROOMMATES!!!! :D

Almost all of my roommates have moved into the apartment. I am so surprised. I thought that I wouldn't do to well, but I already adore all of them and think that they are adorable. I am so excited for the school year! With my Dan (boyfriend), my friends, my roommates, my classes... AH life is going to rock! I just hope that I can hold onto all of what I have recently obtained. Sometimes it's hard to accept change, but I have noticed that the changes that have happened to me lately in my life have brought me the most happiness. Man! I love change... sometimes. hahah.

I applied for nine theatre jobs at the school yesterday. NINE. My hand was dead by the end of filling all of them out. I also made this really really REALLY legit resume that I freaking LOVE. I hope that all of those theatre people at the college can adore my resume and give me a couple jobs. It would make me oober happy. I like jobs. Jobs are good. Especially when they are involved in the theatre department.

Makenzie bought me wine glasses at the DI today. They are freakin LEGIT. Can I just say how much I LOVE LOVE LOVE wine glasses. Once I get out on my own entirely, all of my cups will consist of wine glasses. They make me happy. :)

Well. Dan is freakin incredible... I adore the man and think that he is by far one of the greatest things that has ever happened to me. I guess we will just have to see where life will go. The only thing that I can predict is that life is going to change... how it's going to change...I guess I will never know.... We will see :)

"If you're lucky enough to be in the mountains, you're lucky enough."

Life has an interesting way of totally throwing me off guard and giving me a taste of something that I never expected to happen. Remember that boy I talked about? Well, we are back together again. All the little "break-ups" that we have had have been good for us, and made us realize how much we really care about each other. It's nice. I am not oober twitter patted like I have been in the past, but every time I see him or talk to him my heart beats a little faster and I feel a little more light headed. Being with him is... comforting and... peaceful. I can't help but know that I am doing the right thing and I absolutely love it.

I went to a cabin with my boyfriend and some friends up north. It was a blast. I have missed the mountains. Being with my man helped build our relationship... I don't know. It was just good to be with him those couple of days and just... appreciate him even more. Yay for cabins and camping!

So my room mate just moved into my apartment today... or should I say is currently moving into my apartment. I like her. She is way cool and I have a good feeling about her. I think his school year will be fan-freakin-tastic!!! :)

Well! I am starving and I need to go turn in some job applications so I am going to cut this blog short. Talk to you soon!

"You're like a hippy!"

The break-up itself was rough. I must admit. I did not like it. And I spent a lot of time yesterday feeling sorry for myself. Not cool. I know. But I decided that I was going to go out and have a good time with friends, so I threw on some decently cute clothes and went over to the Staheli's house. I did talk about him a lot but I was happy. It made me feel better.

I was suprised just how much a positive attitude and deciding to be happy can impact your life. It won't always fix everything but it can sure make a difference. It's like what one of my favorite songs states, "And there are dreams that can not be, and there are storms we can not whither." Things won't ALWAYS go better, but we should at least always try to make them better.

Last night I texted this guy named Paul about fixing my car and he ended up coming over this morning to take a look at the car. There are some people in this world who make you laugh. Paul is one of those people who is just awesome and easy to talk to. It made my day. Although I got some serious road rage because people drive to slow and I couldn't find the freakin' school he works at, him fixing my car and taking the time to do it has pretty much made my day. Thank you people!

Hopefully this weekend I will be partying it up hard core at some institute dances or what not. I need to go out and have some funn!!! :D YAY!

I can't stop thinking... I can't stop feeling...

Today has to be one of the hardest days I have had up here in Cedar. I mean. It's been horrible. I'm tired. I'm worn out. I just want to hang out with a friend, but no one is there. . . Everyone is working. This whole breaking up thing is harder than I remember. I think it's just taking a little longer for me to bounce out of it. Maybe it's a combination of a lot of things that is making me feel terrible. What ever it is, I would really like for it to stop now.

Last night there were a lot of stars in the sky. That is an EXCELLENT sign. . . it means something big is going to happen. Lately I haven's seen many stars in the sky, so you can only imagine the pure euphoria racing through my veins as I looked up into the sky. Something is coming. Something is coming soon. I wonder what it is.

I got new pots and pans today from my grandma and grandpa. I was pretty excited. It was nice to be able to make something on the stove for once. I was getting sick and tired of cereal and spaghettio's so... yeah. HA HA.

You know.. College starts really soon. Tanner told me on the phone today that it is going to be the start of a new life for me. It's not going to be anything like the summer. I'll meet new people. And i'll do new things. I am really lookign forward to that day. I feel as though... I use up all my experiences so fast and so much that once I have sucked all the life I can out of something... there isn't anything left.... I am a life sucker aparently. Hmmm. I don't know whether to consider that a good thing or a bad thing.

Well, wish me luck. :)

gg

And then there was one

I dated this boy. I know, I know. It's ridiculous. I'm always dating a boy. I always like someone. Why in the world would I start a blog off with that kind of a statement. It's almost like saying "the sun shines in the sky" or "grass is green". But despite the banality in this statement, there is a new twist to it in my life. This new boy brought something new to the statement "I dated a boy". Something I didn't expect to ever feel. Especially with this boy in particular.

I have always found it facinating how life works. I had always found this boy particularly attractive but never really thought more of it. He would text me and invite me to stuff every now and then, but I usually had another boy up my sleeve. One that I liked more at the time. Little did I know that this young man had liked me for a while and just wanted to get to know me better. I often wonder what would have happened if I would have started dating him a little sooner. Would the outcome have been different?

Well, it all started a week or so ago when I went to his house for dinner. He flirted with me and such, we walked, we talked, we ate and I started to like him. All the time though something felt wrong about dating him... but I decided that I needed to get to know him better before I made such a rash decision to cut him off. Despite my feeling, I also felt that this guy was a great guy and that he was ok to date....

In short...

I dated him...

I let him go because it didn't feel right...

I realized that he was great for me...

He came back...

Then before I knew it...

He was gone.

I was mad. I was upset.... and as a matter of fact... I still sorta am... Well not the mad part, now I am just saddened. You know, he was really a great... no an incredible guy who respected and cared about me... as a matter of fact he still does just he also thought that it didn't feel right. Man. It sucks to get a taste of your own medicine. I am not sure exactly what I was suppossed to learn yet... that will come with time... but all I know is that... everything is going to be okay.

Isn't that always a comforting knowledge?