How wonderful! HE'S wonderful! :)

I want to write a new blog. I want to tell the world exactly how I feel right now... just... let it out onto a blank computer screen and share what I have found with the world. The desire is there, yet there is no defintive way for me to describe these specific things. This weekend has been a dream. There is no other way to say it. Life took a camera to my... brain... (cough cough) when I was sleeping, recorded all the best moments, and somehow intertwined these seemingly unrelated and magical moments to create this.

A memory.

A dang incredible memory that will always, hold a special place in my heart no matter what happens. Isn't that partiatlly what life is about? Learning how to capture a moment and always appreciate it despite the outcome of a given situation? Well... I think it is. So i'm behind on homework (big deal!) so I don't know what tomorrow holds (so what?). All I know is that I can find happiness even in the smallest moments even if at times I need to use the most powerful "microscope" I can get my hands on.

This memory means a lot to me.

So all I will allow to be posted on my blog today regarding this memory is the following statement:

He is wonderful. He is fantatic. He makes my heart beat faster. He is a good friend and one of the best ways to make my day a little brighter.

Thats all :)

I think it would be appropriate to elaborate on the different events that have recently occured in my life. Today I got a new phone (yay!) my old one was about to die... SOOO... thank heaven I relieved it from it's misery. My room mates and I also squeezed together in a box known as "The Box of Shame" to take an epic picture of peace, love, happiness... AND WAR! (sorry to all of those who don't understand the reasoning for adding war... guess you'll never understand my epicness unless you ask). Ava was a dead rock star and Raquel was a cowgirl for Halloween. They were adorable. I did the make-up (and it was the BEEST). ALSO...I was Ke$ha. It was pretty legit. I enjoyed my time being her. ALTHOUGH I never incorporated her actions into my day to day routine. IF you know her songs you know that it wouldnt be a very wise decision.

Aren't the memories formed in the moments wonderful? :)

"I stop to catch my breath, and I stop to catch your eye. No need to second guess that you've been on my mind" :)

Well! In short, life is fantastically wonderful. It truly is. I have been so lucky. I still consider myself the luckiest girl in the world. I have my down moments, but I am suprised with just how optimistic I have allowed myself to become regarding life. The negatism (notice I didn't say pessimism, I never considered myself to be a pessimist. Just a realist on the more negative side of the scale) in me has started to die. I have began to see Faith become a bigger factor in how I make decisions and react to things. College life has taught me so much. I have learned things that I didn't think I ever needed to learn..... I can honestly say that I am simply content. :) I'm at peace with myself and my savior. I could not ask for anything more.

I got the best calling in church ever! I get to teach Relief Society! How cool is that? I am SO excited for this oppertunity. I get to share my testimony and the various things I have come to learn about the gospel! I was so excited when I got that calling. I really hope I can make a difference. We'll see how this goes! :)

Fall is here in Cedar City! It's beautiful! The cold air, the various colors of leaves... it makes me happy inside. There is so much beauty everywhere here in Cedar City. I love it. There is something about the fall that makes someone feel peaceful... it's as though the old you is getting shed away, preparing you to become something new again. (I know I am a dork with my analogies... but my dorkiness is part of my charm ;) ) I love the smell of the autum air, and the light shade of blue that the sky turns, the way the leaves crunch under your feet. I am starting to think that I like fall more than summer!! I know! It's crazy! Maybe it's just the exciting feeling that something BIG is going to happen soon that makes me like fall... nevertheless, here I am, in Cedar, in LOVE with everything that surrounds me!! :)

I sang a song yesterday at the institute fireside! It was so much fun! I loved being able to do it. I was suprised by the fact that I wasn't that nervous at all. It was fantastic. The only complaint I have is that my hands got really tingly, and my neck got very hot... HAHAHA. SO... I was a little nervous, BUT I think it was the best solo that I have ever had the oppertunity of performing. I got so caught up in the song that I started to choke up at the end.... I love it when music has the ability to make you feel things on a deeper level. "Music has the capacity to touch the innermost reaches of the soul and gives flight to the imagination." As stated so beautifully by Plato, what else in this world can do that?

On another note! I have the BIGGEST crush on this guy. So pretty much he is simply fantastic and talented and wonderful! I have never been so nervous being around a guy! He is so wonderful.... I guess I'll just have to see where things go. In all honesty, it doesn't matter what happens, as long as I learn something then I am good. :) I can sing in front of hundereds of people without screwing up but when it comes to talking to this guy... I kinda freeze up and the real Alexis goes into hibernation while this weird one comes in and takes it's place.... it's lame. HAHAHA! Oh well!! That's whats new!

Magical :) Magical :)

This has been one of those incredible weekends that seems to change your life. I went to see my family for family pictures, realized how much I love my family, and then....

WAM!

Well, I can't really describe in words the amazing change that has occurred in my life. Nothing truly that spectacular happened. As a matter of fact, nothing really happened... but my heart was full. I was happy. I was truly happy. I feel closer to the lord than I have ever felt in a long time... everything is just falling into place. I never thought it would. I always felt as though everything was going to go wrong... but now I know that the lord will help me and guide me to exactly where I need to be.

And no matter what happens.

I will know that the lord loves me.

And wants the best for me.

BESIDES THAT!!! I am sitting in the darkened kitchen of my apartment while four of my room mates are wrestling on the floor, yelling, and taking pictures. HAHAHAAHH! It's fantastic! I have the best room mates in the world. They are beautiful! AMAZING! Spectacular! AND INSPIRATIONAL young women who are helping me become the best I can be. Very few people in this world can say that their room mates their freshman year of college were just perfect for them. These girls are among my best friends and I am so happy for them. They are the best. Period.

Eliza has a boyfriend (who is amazing), Rachel has a boyfriend (who is amazing), and the rest of us enjoy our spare time laughing and going to ST. George, and loving and all sorts of fun stuff. Life is great.

I also gave my phone number to my waiter at brick oven pizza this past week. He was really cute! I like my forward nature sometimes! Everything is just working out! Yay life!